so i guess im coming back to xanga to vent my daily life once again. who knows.. maybe it will help me out in the long run. so much has happened since the last time i updated this thing. ok so its july 30, 2007. me and justin have been together for 2 years in less than a month.
its kind of crazy how fast time flies. i dont even feel like i actually graduated in june. it all feels like a blur to me. i am living with justin just like i have been since febuary. idk. things were really good at first. now... idk.. its like i love him and i want to be with him but it feels like he never wants to be with me.
i went back to read some of my eariler blogs on here and i realized that i have changed alot. i am not as immature as i used to be. i have lost alot of friends throughout my life and i am sure that i am going to lose more.
so i am currently 18 years old and i have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life. i am going to attend carroll community college next month. i really dont want to. idk. its hard to explain.
i have a gut feeling that something really bad is going to happen. and my world is going to crash all over again. i dont think i can take much more of that. idk. we will see what happens.
but until then, i am here. where i usually am. being bored out of my mind and bioting down on my tongue so i dont say something that will cause me trouble later.
heyy all u sexyy people.. i think this is gonna be the last update imma do fro a reallly long time.. ive jus been too busy with work and skool and of course <3 justin <3
HAPPY 3 MONTHS JUSTIN! I LOVE YOUUU ! <3
sooo yea.. i jus wanted to let u al know that im still alive and still breathing and if u gotta myspace hit me up there...
Single or Taken: Happily Taken.. I love you justin <3 Sex: hehe when? Siblings: none Height: 5'2" What are you wearing right now: black sweatpants... a black tank top and justins hoodie =) Where do you live?: maryland Righty or lefty: Righty Favorite cartoon: Spongebob
*Have you ever* smoked cigarettes/weed: yes/no Bungee Jumped: no Parasailed: no Made yourself throw-up: no Gone skinny dipping: yes Been in the opposite sex's bathroom: haha yes Eaten a dog biscuit: yea Loved someone so much it made you cry: yeah Played truth or dare: yes Been in a physical fight: yeah Been in a police car: umm no Been in a sauna: yeah Been in a hot tub: yeah Swam in the ocean: yes Fallen asleep in school: yeah Ran away: yes Broken someone's heart?: yes Cried when someone died: yeah Flashed someone: haha yes! in 8th grade i think? lol Cried in school: yeahh Fell off your chair: yes Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: no Saved MSN / AOL / AIM conversations: yeah hehe Saved e-mails: no Fallen for your best guy/girl friend?: yeah Been cheated on: yea
*What is..* your good luck charm: My necklace What's beside you?: my chem notebook What kind of shampoo do you use: redken Something that happened to you this year: i started dating my wonderful boyfriend <3 Worst thing that has happened to you this year: my dad is being a dick Believe in love at first sight: I don't know Like picnics: yea college is: gonna be fucking awesome Loved anyone?: i love some1 right now
*Would you:* Eat a live hamster: NO! Kill someone you didn't know for 15 billion dollars: Wow. If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you: justin, beau, amanda, joe, and eric lol
*Who Was the last person................* You touched: justin You yelled at: my dad Who broke your heart: ehh lets not go there Who told you they loved you last: justin Is your loudest friend: ha im definetely the loudest outta my friends
*Do you/Are You:* Do you like filling these out: Well, if I didn't like to why would I be doing it? Do you wear contacts or glasses: Nope Do you like yourself: yea.. sometimes Obsessive: About some things Anorexic: Nope Depressed: no Suicidal: No
*Final questions-* What are you listening to right now: photograph by nickelback (mine and justins song.. all cuz of joe.. lmao.. fun times) Can you do a front or back flip: In a pool What did you do yesterday: Go to school, work, and hang out with justin
heyy.. whats up.. nuttin much here.. im jus broed utta my mind.. i really dont feel like doing the crap loa dof homework that i really should be doing but yea.. i miss justin =( .. but he's gonna call me soon. soo yea.. blahh yea i did some surveys soo yea.. lol ok miaa outta heree.. byezzz
I love you justin! More than anything.. 8.28.05 <3
01. Justin 02. Beau 03. Courtney 04. Chris 05. Joe 06. Sam 07. Tyra 08. Laura 09. Nick 10. Amanda
BOLD THESE iF THEY'RE TRUE
01. #1 HAS A BOYFRiEND/GiRLFRiEND. 02. i'VE GOTTEN iN A FiGHT WiTH #9. 03. #10 iS SLOW. 04. #8 LOVE LAGUNA BEACH. 05. #10 HATES #1. 06. #2 iS A CAMERA WHORE. 07. #10 HAS HAD MORE THAN FiVE BOY/GiRL FRiENDS. 08. #9 HAS A CAR. 09. i HATE #8. 10. #1 iS PERFECT. 11. #2 iS CRAZZZYYY. 12. #9 iS A GOTH. 13. #5 iS A NERD. 14. #10 iS FLiRTYY. 15. #7 MADE OUT WiTH SOMEONE ON THE LiST. 16. #3 iS REALLY FUNNY. 17. #9 HAS A LOT OF SHOES. 18. i LOVE #10. 19. #5 iS SPOiLED. 20. #6 iS A SLUT. 21. #2 LOVE THE YANKEES. 22. #4 iS REALLY STUPiD. 23. #5 iS ALWAYS HYPER. 24. #3 LOVES SOCCER. 25. #6 HATES #4. 26. #1 iS MY BESTEST FRiEND EVER. 27. #8 LAUGHS ALL THE TiME. 28. #7 iS A PREP. 29. #4 GOES TO MY SCHOOL. 30. #10 HAS THROWN A PARTY. 31. #3 iS A BiTCH. 32. #6'S FAVORiTE COLOR iS BLACK. 33. #8 STARTS A LOT OF DRAMA. 34. #2 iS A TEASE. 35. #4 iS A WHORE 36. i'VE KNOWN #1 FOR MORE THAN FiVE YEARS. 37. #6 HAS A LOT OF MAGAZiNES. 38. i HAVE #7'S CELL NUMBER.
bold what is true
1. I hate it when people tell me to "calm down" when im already calm. 2. No matter what season, i always seem to have cold feet. 3. I've watched every episode of the first season of a show. 4. I'd like to change at least 2 things about me physically. 5. I'd rather it be pouring then it be sunny. 6. I have more guy friends then girls. 7. I've kissed on the first date before. 8. At least 2 of my friends are in a band. 9. I like school. 10. I wear contacts/glasses. 11. I think teenage dating is over rated. 12. I've been cheated on. 13. I like cats more than dogs. 14. I've seen a movie none of my friends have heard of. 15. More people bother me than i could count. 16. I'm nice to people i know i shouldnt be. 17. Its hard for me to be myself. 18. I always find myself needing more double A batteries. 19. I've gotten into a fist fight. 20. I get along with my family well. 21. I trust all my friends. 22. i think ashlee simpson is 'punk'. 23. I've seen at least 3 episodes of the ashlee simpson show. 24. I like the color pink. 25. I've been on a skate board more than once....but i can't skate 26. I love snapple. 27. My hair is it's natural color. 28. I'm good at most sports. 29. Laughing turns me on. 30. Halloween is my favorite holiday. 31. I'm confident of my sexuality. 32. I've worn christmas clothes during june. 33. I like george bush, and am rooting for him. 34. I have a secret from everyone. 35. I got more than 5 things for my last birthday. 36. Rumors spread fast in my school. 37. I have a friend in trouble. 38. I'm religous. 39. I have a certain color that looks good on me. 40. At least one of my family members has had cancer. 41. Ive pee'ed outside before. 42. I'm afraid of the dark. 43. I can tie my own shoes. 44. I've gotten lost in a new school at least 10 times. 45. I think it's hott and shows confidence when guys wear hott pink. 46. I have a strange attraction to the color orange. 47. I've done things, and been copied off of within the hour. 48. I've spent at least 2 weeks away from home without my parents// siblings. 49. I dread school days. 50. I've had huge crushes on people, with out ever talking to them. 51. My heart been/is broken. 52. I want to go to college. 53. I've worn pj's to public places before. 54. I've babysat alone before. 55. I have a steady job. 56. I dont think skirts can be 'too short'. 57. I shop souly at one store for all my clothes. 58. I care what people think about me. 59. Choclate pudding is amazing. 60. I've seen the notebook. 61. I've been betrayed by someone i was close to. 62. I regret stupid things i've done in the past. 63. I've had someone head over heels for me. 64. I think old bridge is ignorant and dirty. 65. My hair is straight naturally. 66. I wish i had natural curls. 67. I exercise. 68. I have a biting fetish. 69. I speak/read a different language. 70. I've seen someone walk into a tree, unpurposly, before. 71. A family member of mine is in the hospital. 72. I have at least 5 piercings. 73. I think I know what love is. 74. I can forgive, but I'll never forget. 75. I have a favorite number for no exact reason. 76. Ive been out of the country. 77. I have my future planned out. 78. I think about the future often. 79. I wish I could erase some things in my past. 80. I play an instrument of some type. 81. I have nail polish on. 82. I like compliments. 83. I have undone homework sitting around. 84. I think chad micheal murry is the most gorgeous man ever. 85. I bring a c.d. player to school. 86. I've smoked before. 87. Someone currently likes me. 88. My room has a theme.\ 89. I have a live animal in my room. 88. I watch cartoons. 90. I drink more water then people would think. 91. I read peoples away messages when they go away. 92. I have plans for the weekend all the time. 93. I think I have a life. 94. I've painted a room before. 95. I go to camp. 96. I wish I could sing good. 97. I've been in a school play. 98. I couldn't tell you who the fuck fabio is. 99. It bothers me that i'm so relient on my parents. 101. I've been given a corsage by a member of the opposite sex. 102. I'm there for my friends, no matter what. 103. I've been to Europe. 140. I type corecttly. (as in all fingers on keys and whatnot) 105. I think Jonny Depp is hot. 106. I own more then 20 pairs of shoes. 107. My family goes on vacation every year together. 108. I've snuck out & been caught. 109. I have step-siblings. 110. I own a boat. 111. I liked this survay.
